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A Soul In Progress (Moving Update!)

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A Soul In Progress (Moving Update!)

I give an update on my moving process, a fun new polytheist deity relationship, and how I foresee this new era being truly transformative for me.

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Stability and Land Relations

Stability, true stability, requires both material and emotional safety. I have almost always had the former, but never the latter until recently. Because I'm about to embark on my 4th move in less than 3 years since coming to California, this is something I have been thinking about more often.

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By the Time You Read This...

I'll be facing an influential transphobe dead on. You may have noticed that I do not blog at the rate I once did since the Tr*mp inauguration (re-inauguration?). That's because most of the creative inspiration, minus some fiction efforts offline, is stunted much like other

Don't Name Your Sourdough Starter After a Dead Queer Magician

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Don't Name Your Sourdough Starter After a Dead Queer Magician

Back in November, I acquired a sourdough starter from one of my trans brothers who works in a health food restaurant in my area. I really had no idea what I was getting myself into. The first people I showed my new baby off to was two of my friends

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Voice Sample in 3 Genders

https://videopress.com/v/HJN2x2jg?resizeToParent=true&cover=true&preloadContent=metadata&useAverageColor=true Hello. I started grad school last week, which has been enthralling but a huge shift to my schedule. I also don't live very far out from Los Angeles county and the next

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Watching Venus and Mars Transits

Back when Grace and I first had to take time apart, I became obsessed with tracking Venus and Mars transits, both mundane and in association with our natal placements. Since Hellenistic astrology, Venus and Mars have been associated with their deities' namesakes, which makes their relationship unique among all

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Processing Guilt and Power in a Legal Gender Change

When I was a comic book journalist in the mid 2010s, I was targeted for sex-based reasons twice by cis men with more clout and power. The first time was by a small time artist with a long time girlfriend who paid me minimal mind at the industry dinner we

The Election and My Experience With Claircognizance (Psychic Knowing)

On October 17th, I noted in my spiritual journal: “I preferred another few weeks of peace instead of my claircog working for the election.” I wasn’t looking to know. I was just lying in bed with Grace, as I do every day now. We were snuggling after doing some

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Why I Use Neo-Pronouns

So some conservative asshole on the internet a few days ago told me my neo-pronouns were worth mockery and I cried about it. As a result of that, Grace asked me how my ze/zem/zir pronouns differed for me from they/them/their pronouns or my he/him/his

Apollo and Daphne: The T4T Myth

This morning I was talking to my beautiful Grace while driving to a certain area where I like to do my writing. I love this area because Apollo's presence is extremely strong there. As I was coming through with my car, it occurred to me that I would

Cosmology Building with Cannabis

My recently former podmate A once told me that she had never gotten as high as I have off cannabis. Truly, most people don't. I have had full on hallucinogenic trips almost every time I have taken an indica edible, leading to spiritual journeying and cosmology building as

A Polyamory Flop: Rethinking Non-Hierarchical

I should not be dating anyone at all right now. I keep saying this over and over again. But I do have an on and off thing with this girl—entirely in the astral, which is its own complex thing—and she's monogamous. I have identified as poly

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Relating to Others As A Spiritual Person

Back in New Jersey, I did not tell most people that I was spiritual. Between my parents' inability to support my creativity throughout my life and my now former spouse's disdain toward the metaphysical, I got the message that the things most important to me were the

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The Importance of My Androgyny

[Judgements 10] A retrograde planet signifies disobedience, and contradiction, and turning back and taking back, and diversity or discord. [BW VIII.31] A retrograde planet signifies antagonism (Epstein: revelationem) and the dissipation of everything considered. [BW VIII.92] Retrograde: like one returning, and pulling back. (Epstein: "rebellious and defiant.

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Non-binaryness, Transmasculinity, and the Battle with Modern Feminism

I am not sure how spiritual or magical this post is going to be, but it's important for me to express. When I started writing this post, I had recently spoken to 3 fellow genderqueer people (while the Full Moon in Virgo was opposing Saturn and Mercury in