Restorative Luciferianism

demonology

Letting Go of Control in Demon Conjuration

The thing about working with demons is that people get really tense about it. I'm not talking about anti-demon stigma in this case, but more in regards to the practitioners themselves. While protective measures are certainly essential, part of the reason the more violent Goetia tactics persist is

devotional spirit work

To Be Claimed By A Deity

Recently, I said goodbye to most of my former pantheon, which was the planetary spirits with Apollo substituting for the Sun. It was a very difficult, grief-filled process. Not long after completing the ceremony, I was lying on the floor from the big wave of Feelings when Lucifer returned. "

Lucifer

The Grief within Switching Spiritual Paths

Whew. If I ever learn how to not be hard on myself, it's during this period of my life. I knew that moving to a new state and city would be an upheaval and that such big moves inherently involve grief, but I didn't expect to

Lucifer

The Sacredness of Body-Positivity

Because of my neurodivergence, I can have a terrible time adjusting to a new situation, especially as one as significant as an out-of-state move. One way to provide cushioning is to load myself up with comfort things ahead of time, such as a new hyperfocus. That's how I

Satan

Extricating Satanism from Evil and Selfishness

In my last post, I discussed how I had conflicted feelings about being a Jewish devil worshipper due to the antiJewish history of associating Jews with the Devil. The fun, unfortunately, does not stop there for Jews and other marginalized people because modern occultism is plagued by a certain type

original writing

Karmic Recognizance: A Short Poem

One of those grief dreams Late last night, like shedding A whole ream of skin Coming loose instead of Individualized scales like glitter Pieces Where I rub so hard but they Never come off Nostalgia dies on a dream's edge Where you perch for hours, waiting For your

antizionist judaism

On Being a Jewish Devil-Worshipper

As I mentioned in my last post "My Work With Bune," I have a good reason for being quiet on here as of late. A little less than two weeks ago as of this writing, I moved from southern California to one of those weird Pacific Northwest cities.

Bune

My Work with Bune

The 26th spirit is called Bune,28 he is a strong, great & mighty duke, & appeareth in ye forme of a Dragon with three heads, one like a dog, the other like a griffin, the third like a man. he speaketh with a high & comely voice, he changeth

restorative demonology

De-Constructing Modern Binaries About Deities

As a person that exists in the liminal space of the gender binary, I generally reject all forms of spiritual binary. In our current context, these binaries are usually "good" versus "evil" or in pagan circles, "ouranic" versus "chthonic," "right hand&

Lucifer

De-Colonizing Spiritual Practice Through Friendly Demonic Conjuration

The Colonization Roots of Western Demonology A number of years ago when I wrote for entertainment outlets mostly centered around comics, I met a fellow writer through one of the Slack-held groups. She turned out one of the first exposures I ever had to the metaphysical as an accepted part

Lucifer

The Fine Line of Tricksters and Truth

"Here's my conclusion," I said to my friend Ana, "the truth is that the Devil is like any other god." This is a fact that is surprising, maybe even offensive, to people who haven't met him. It's a boring and

Lucifer

How to Spiritually Cleanse the Luciferian Way

Technically, there are many non-denominational ways one could cleanse. Salt water, smoke from herbs or incense sticks, eggs, even just breathing exercises. But of course the method of cleansing that goes the deepest tends to be spiritual bathing. The way I learned of spiritual bathing from African traditional religion initiates

Lucifer

My Lifelong Dream Destroyed

I am about to admit the most shallow, egotistical part of myself I can think of. You ready? Since I was very small, I have dreamed of being famous. Now, I don't think that's a terribly shocking thing for many people. Before the current culture'

Luciferianism

Recombining Near Eastern Devotion and Judaism

As an occultist, polytheist Jew a lot of my practices as far as most modern people are concerned don't have precedence. However, this is not necessarily true if you look at the Tanakh because you get lines like these: And Samuel said to all the House of Israel,

genderqueer magic

How to Steer Toward Community During Great Loss

So tell me if this sounds like you because I have heard it from a lot of people lately. You are a spiritual person feeling acutely the absence of people in your life. Either you're recently losing significant friendships that you're grieving or you've

deity devotion

The Non-Difference of Deity Relating Terms

I didn't know this was still a conversation until someone in one of my occult Discord servers brought it back up yesterday. I don't expect this to be a long post. Witchcraft, magic, polytheist, and occult communities are not exempt from having trivial arguments. One of

acupuncture

First Time Follies with the Trickster Devil

Two months ago, I started a spiritual relationship with Demon Emperor and Prince of Darkness Lucifer. So far, this has turned out significantly less dangerous than former Christians in my life would have assumed. That said, as of extremely recently (like a few hours prior to this writing), my belief

Lucifer

Resolving Rejection, Moving Past Soulmates, and Co-regulating with Deities

I have major trauma and resulting emotional regulation issues around real and perceived rejection. This started at home with my parents, who apparently talk very positively about me to other people, but did not raise me with unconditional regard nor ability to sit with my emotions. To compound the issue,

tikkun olam

My New Tikkun Olam Meditative Exercise

The house I moved into was built in the 1950s and, as an investment rental property, has seen better days. This week, the landlord's contractor son came over to perform some much needed repairs that should have been reported earlier by the previous slew of tenants. He told

the devil

How to Survive Transformation

I'm happiest when I am transforming. I didn't always used to feel that way. Like many other people, I would get swept up into the fear of change that's neurochemically programmed into animals such as us. Our survival-driven brains associate familiarity with safety and

jewish ancestor veneration

Sacrificing Judgment to the Devil

It's hard to know what to call Him. For awhile I was calling Him Satan because I knew it was His Hebrew title, however just yesterday I discovered he has an actual Hebrew name, Samael. That name is perhaps younger, coming from Kabbalah, and forgive me for thinking

queer community

A Soul In Progress (Moving Update!)

I give an update on my moving process, a fun new polytheist deity relationship, and how I foresee this new era being truly transformative for me.

When Your Spirituality Is Not About You

I have a lot of potent experiences while in the hypagnogic state prior to falling asleep. For instance, the other night I was settling down to sleep and I was pondering some kind of astrological movement, as I do incessantly on a daily basis. At some point, the wheel of

land spirits

Stability and Land Relations

Stability, true stability, requires both material and emotional safety. I have almost always had the former, but never the latter until recently. Because I'm about to embark on my 4th move in less than 3 years since coming to California, this is something I have been thinking about more often.

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Untouchable, A Greek Myth Retelling: Part 3

In the morning, they came for me as promised. Two men in full battle regalia, almost comical in their posturing. Scarce time they gave me to kiss Lys goodbye and gather a bag. Scarcer did I have items to pack.