androgynous

A collection of 29 posts

queer lifestyle

By the Time You Read This...

I'll be facing an influential transphobe dead on. You may have noticed that I do not blog at the rate I once did since the Tr*mp inauguration (re-inauguration?). That's because most of the creative inspiration, minus some fiction efforts offline, is stunted much like other

queer lifestyle

Don't Name Your Sourdough Starter After a Dead Queer Magician

Back in November, I acquired a sourdough starter from one of my trans brothers who works in a health food restaurant in my area. I really had no idea what I was getting myself into. The first people I showed my new baby off to was two of my friends

gender contemplations

Voice Sample in 3 Genders

https://videopress.com/v/HJN2x2jg?resizeToParent=true&cover=true&preloadContent=metadata&useAverageColor=true Hello. I started grad school last week, which has been enthralling but a huge shift to my schedule. I also don't live very far out from Los Angeles county and the next

Judaism

I Liked My Mother Better Fat

Hello from Florida, one of the last places a transgender person should be in the so-called United States starting in a few weeks. I'm here for the unveiling of my grandfather's tombstone and, appropriately for the event, a lot of trauma has reared its head less

queer lifestyle

Watching Venus and Mars Transits

Back when Grace and I first had to take time apart, I became obsessed with tracking Venus and Mars transits, both mundane and in association with our natal placements. Since Hellenistic astrology, Venus and Mars have been associated with their deities' namesakes, which makes their relationship unique among all

writing

Untitled Genderfluid Poem

You can't destroy me I phase too swiftly Like the breath past the Edge of your front teeth Before you've realized That you exhaled

Amtrak

Working Through the Illusion of Separation

All the images above were taken from windows of an Amtrak train, which I rode all the way from southern California to Seattle, Washington over the course of a day and a half. While I'm not the best photographer, I think the coastline does well in extolling its

gender contemplations

Processing Guilt and Power in a Legal Gender Change

When I was a comic book journalist in the mid 2010s, I was targeted for sex-based reasons twice by cis men with more clout and power. The first time was by a small time artist with a long time girlfriend who paid me minimal mind at the industry dinner we

divination

The Election and My Experience With Claircognizance (Psychic Knowing)

On October 17th, I noted in my spiritual journal: “I preferred another few weeks of peace instead of my claircog working for the election.” I wasn’t looking to know. I was just lying in bed with Grace, as I do every day now. We were snuggling after doing some

medical transition

Meditations on Saturn Transit on the IC

Generally, I try not to share too much of my chart especially this publicly. I hang around a group of very traditional occultists who would advise against it. If you see someone's full chart, you can easily perform malefic magic that will cause a significant amount of damage.

androgynous

A Somewhat Humorous Review on Bottom Growth Cream

Disclaimer: this post is obviously not safe for work as I will be talking about genitalia in detail and the potential changes they can undergo while on hormone replacement therapy, as well as sexual topics. Product: Testosterone Compound Cream Dose: 150 mg Rating: 2 out of 5 stars Summary: Bottom

gender contemplations

Meditations on Masculinity: The Beauty of Roughness

When I was a senior in high school, there were two other students in one of my classes probably named Jake and Kristen. I lived in a large town and had almost 400 kids in my graduating class, so this was the first time I had ever met either of

androgynous

Spiritual Cleansing When Undergoing A Second Puberty

When children are in the home, a surge in psychic activity takes place as the child enters puberty. Puberty signifies a physical phase in which energy levels in the body change tremendously. These changes are necessary as they convert the child into an adult. These energy level changes are accompanied

gender contemplations

Why I Use Neo-Pronouns

So some conservative asshole on the internet a few days ago told me my neo-pronouns were worth mockery and I cried about it. As a result of that, Grace asked me how my ze/zem/zir pronouns differed for me from they/them/their pronouns or my he/him/his

mercury

The Most Mercurial I have ever been

I got ID'ed as male by three separate cis men strangers in the last three days and then I just got ma'amed by a service worker after coming up in a line of all cis women. I am truly male with men and female with women.

apollo

Apollo and Daphne: The T4T Myth

This morning I was talking to my beautiful Grace while driving to a certain area where I like to do my writing. I love this area because Apollo's presence is extremely strong there. As I was coming through with my car, it occurred to me that I would

transitional astrology

Mars in Cancer: Grieving a Mother Wound

Back in New Jersey, I sought acupuncture treatment to help manage my addiction-level sugar cravings, which I inherited from my mother. So I wasn't nervous to reach out to a traditional Chinese medicine college in my local area that had a low-cost clinic. I was particularly interested in

apollo

A Quick Prayer for Clarity to Apollo

I attend vocal coaching, which is amazing because it mixes my lifelong dreams of taking singing lessons with learning how to speak in a way that better suits my dropping voice. My vocal coach is Billie Lyn Ploof (email her at billielynploof@gmail.com if you want video-based vocal lessons

gender contemplations

Non binary People Are Annoying and Other Hot Trans Takes

This post is NSFW. Okay, I don't think non binary people are annoying, I was just pissed off earlier this week by two people who happened to be non binary like your beloved blogger here. Also, the title of this blog post is somewhat ironic because I hate

gender contemplations

A Short List of Absurd Things That Gave Me Dysphoria

Please read the below with a tone of black humor. 1. My new Lordy fragrance oil from Black Phoenix Alchemy Lab didn't smell quite right on me because my body was pre-testosterone. I did not know you could smell wrong before that 2. I had my hairstylist shave

medical transition

Testosterone Update: Identity through Hair and the Expense of Transness

My hair has taken a beating my entire life so I am particularly protective over it. I was born in the 1990s with curly Jewish hair. It was assumed to merely be wavy because it wasn't until a few years ago when curly hair care reached peak awareness

gender contemplations

Meditations on Masculinity

Not to infer the common misconception that masculinity as a quality is solely, or even primarily, held by cis men, but for the sake of the conversation let's start with cis men. We have all had shitty experiences with cis men. Even cis men have shitty experiences with

psychic work

How Transitioning My Gender Improved My Psychic Skills

You can't truly ground if you can't trust yourself. My childhood was spent in dissociation. Because my brain was starved of necessary dopamine, it generated more via chronic daydreaming. I never knew what was going on around me because I lived in my head where my

transitional astrology

Life Updates and When It's Great to Be Wrong

Entering into 2024, it seemed to be all about love and relationships. That's what Twitter astrologers espoused, anyway. Frankly, looking at my transits, I thought so too and so did my astrologer and tarot reader. Venus and Mars finally reconnected in Aquarius a few months ago after never

androgyne

Starting Testosterone

I started testosterone today. The New Moon approaches in Taurus, exalted and well conditioned. I prayed to and praised Mercury with off-the-cuff improvised glee before applying the gel to my Inanna 8-point star chest tattoo. It went something like: O Friend O Teacher O Mentor O Guide As you are