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Luciferian meditation

The Most Phenomenal Luciferian Meditation

I ended up at this Luciferian samatha meditation in a fairly unanticipated way. Although I have read and heard some about Tibetan Buddhism, I noticed I have been experiencing a lot of confusion about what I was learning. This confusion, and a grasping impulse to define myself within Buddhist frameworks

goetia

I'm No Longer Calling Myself an Occultist

As a trans person and a Jew, I recognize that identifiers can be really important. They are terms of which we use to describe ourselves or others in order to better communicate what we value. But sometimes, we pick a label for ourselves based on something once felt in alignment

Soto Zen

Lucifer On the Nature of Spirits

This might sound crazy in 2026, but Tumblr is still a great website. I keep finding gems to share with my friends, including this short story just a few days ago. Reading that got me in the mood for one of those Christopher Nolan timefucky films. Since Tenet somehow isn&

astrology

Connecting Cannabis and Astrology in Spirit Work

Historically, humans have partnered with and implemented cannabis for a wide range of uses, and this has very much included religion. Every time I try to write this post, I get too in-depth into the history of cannabis use, but suffice to say, despite some Puritanical, DARE-influenced attitudes that have

Lucifer

Luciferian Dialogue: On Asking Spirits Repeat Questions

Me: So we have established that it does not annoy you when I ask you the same question over and over again out of anxiety and looking for reassurance. Lucifer: Mm, yes. Me: What of in other cases where the repeated question isn't out of anxiety, does it

Lucifer

A Retrospective in Love (Saturn in Pisces Concludes)

I don't know if it's politically incorrect to identify myself as a person who experiences chronic pain. My body may flex and shuttle itself without the protest of joints or nerves; however, my spirit moves within it like the string of a bow tied too taut.

death work

The Goodbyes and Hellos of Death Work

A couple of months ago, Lucifer and I were discussing my rejection at the hands of Persephone, which occurred a number of years ago when I was first starting my spiritual path. He laughed at the situation, elaborating, "She's picky with who she chooses as a follower.

Lucifer

Discussing the 2nd Grave Bodhisattva Precept With My Demons

I'm not a person who posts my altars super often, but I will on this post because it's basically all of us hanging out. Beelzebub is on the left, Astaroth in the center, the cuneiform mug is Lucifer's, and on the right is Belial.

Lucifer

The Utmost Importance of Questioning Your Gods

Spoilers for the documentary "The Cursed Man" ahead. Do good for others—embrace all things and conditions. Leap beyond the holy and the unholy. Let us rescue ourselves together with all beings. -The Third Pure Mahayana precept I don't pretend that I comprehend Lucifer's

Lucifer

Experiencing "Tower Moments" When Working With Demons

One shared thing about tarot, Satanism/Luciferianism, and demonalatry is that they largely began in the 20th century. I say "largely" because there's some historical wiggle room, such as the debatably Satanist 19th century German order Fraternitas Saturni1 and the fact that tarot was based off

deities

Are the Gods Picky?

Relatively recently, made a tumblr account! The Luciferians there are super cool and I have found it to be a way more chill site than it was over 10 years ago. However, earlier this week, I saw one Luciferian I follow get upset at another Luciferian I follow because the

deity devotion

The Unexpected New Way I Perceive Spirits

This blog post is going to start in my "future social worker" voice. That is important to say up front because while most in that profession are drastically underpaid, undervalued, and overworked, there is in fact a reason it requires a graduate degree for most practice. Our culture

ancestor spirits

Factors for Improving Your Spirit Communications

Lucifer suggested I write this one. Big thanks to him as well as to my friends André, Heather, and Emma for helping me direct it by submitting questions. Friends in my occult communities have needed to remind me a few times in the last year that I have unusually high

personal life update

Welcoming New Joys of 2026

In many ways, 2025 was my year of love. When you meet someone for whom you fall deeply, it necessitates that your priorities and way of life changes to further include and reflect them. For that reason, 2025 was full of endings and new beginnings. It truly started when I

Lucifer

Why I See Lucifer As a Solar Deity

It is undoubted that all of the inferior are beneath the superior. In a certain way (as Proclus said) they belong to each other—that is, the lowest supreme and the highest inferior [...] Therefore, we say that some things are Solar, some things are Lunar, in which the Sun or

cleansing

Living Haunted: Thoughts on Cleansing and Banishing

My dogchild died, but he's also still here. Grief is weird when you can perceive spirits. It's also really hard to blog about it because it all still feels so raw and vulnerable. Laddie hasn't been gone even a month yet and I'

restorative demonology

An Interview with the Demon: Belial

"You're so worthless/Far from perfect/Don't know why I ever cared Always hopeless/Up for purchase/I think you were made from hell" (Blog post dedicated to King Belial!) I didn't start my night thinking I was going to interview the

ancestor veneration

Laddie: A Eulogy

It seems wrong to let this pass without noting it. So I will say my dogchild Laddie died on Thanksgiving day. If I were to talk only spiritually, Laddie was a spiritual dog. He would curl up by Apollo's shrine and receive healing from him. He received a

demonology

Letting Go of Control in Demon Conjuration

The thing about working with demons is that people get really tense about it. I'm not talking about anti-demon stigma in this case, but more in regards to the practitioners themselves. While protective measures are certainly essential, part of the reason the more violent Goetia tactics persist is

devotional spirit work

To Be Claimed By A Deity

Recently, I said goodbye to most of my former pantheon, which was the planetary spirits with Apollo substituting for the Sun. It was a very difficult, grief-filled process. Not long after completing the ceremony, I was lying on the floor from the big wave of Feelings when Lucifer returned. "

Lucifer

The Grief within Switching Spiritual Paths

Whew. If I ever learn how to not be hard on myself, it's during this period of my life. I knew that moving to a new state and city would be an upheaval and that such big moves inherently involve grief, but I didn't expect to

Lucifer

The Sacredness of Body-Positivity

Because of my neurodivergence, I can have a terrible time adjusting to a new situation, especially as one as significant as an out-of-state move. One way to provide cushioning is to load myself up with comfort things ahead of time, such as a new hyperfocus. That's how I

Satan

Extricating Satanism from Evil and Selfishness

In my last post, I discussed how I had conflicted feelings about being a Jewish devil worshipper due to the antiJewish history of associating Jews with the Devil. The fun, unfortunately, does not stop there for Jews and other marginalized people because modern occultism is plagued by a certain type

original writing

Karmic Recognizance: A Short Poem

One of those grief dreams Late last night, like shedding A whole ream of skin Coming loose instead of Individualized scales like glitter Pieces Where I rub so hard but they Never come off Nostalgia dies on a dream's edge Where you perch for hours, waiting For your

antizionist judaism

On Being a Jewish Devil-Worshipper

As I mentioned in my last post "My Work With Bune," I have a good reason for being quiet on here as of late. A little less than two weeks ago as of this writing, I moved from southern California to one of those weird Pacific Northwest cities.